Today is great because…

Find your focus, then refocus

Posted: August 22nd, 2012 | Author: | Filed under: Nothingness, Personal, Uncategorized | Comments Off

out-of-focusNow’s probably not the best time to fire up the ol’ happiness blog. The tag line of the blog is “Today is great because…” Well, today wasn’t great at all. The last two weeks have not been great. In fact, I’ve been on something of a lower plane of mental stability for a while now. Happiness comes in waves; without lows there are no highs. (And the weeks after your gf moves out, the lows go a bit lower.)

We all go through these transition periods in our lives. As long as my highs aren’t lower than the lows that most people experience, I feel like I’m doing ok.

Thinking back, I had a different idea in mind when starting this stupid website a couple years ago–before I left it for dead and gave thought to it even less than the zero people who have ever visited it. My intention then was to focus on the positive, good (maybe great) little things in my day, or even in the days of the people around me. There’s a lot of good stuff happening all the time. SO MUCH! But it’s so easy to get bogged down into the garbage.

Recent good things/bad things/failed ideas

(not for sure which category these should fall in)
I started the initial plans/layout and marketing for a web development website that would follow my progress as I learned to code websites. I’ve had these two seemingly conflicting urges for a lot of the last few years: write things and learn to code websites. A few months ago I put together a timeline to improve my development skills. So why not start a website and share that and also keep my writing muscles in shape? That was the idea, anyway.

But I got lazy. Never completed my learning plan. Never even published the website.

Why I failed

  • I questioned myself. I thought the idea had already been done a thousand times. There are so many websites already dedicated to web development and learning it and teaching it and serving ads to people googling it. I got discouraged then started to think my idea was stupid. Then I stopped working on it.
  • I quite my learning plan. I just stopped studying and instead spent time on the couch watching movies with my girlfriend. And it was beautiful. It also turned to summer, so we went camping together and to friends’ weddings and other fun stuff.

Why I succeeded

  • I started the project. I started learning. I’m smarter and more experienced for having done the work that I did finish.
  • I didn’t let a plan or list of to-dos stop me from enjoying quality time with loved ones. It’s so easy to think that success is the divine goal–our lives turn into a series of goals and the to-dos to get there. We work hard all the time to earn our sense of accomplishment. It’s often worth the effort and conviction. Some times we also need to take advantage of the love we can share with our family members while we can get it. I don’t regret that and I will always consider it a success.

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