Today is great because…

It was great

Posted: September 24th, 2009 | Author: | Filed under: Uncategorized | Comments Off

Today: Living with intention and kind of knowing what that means.

Here’s the thing about advice that people give me: I need to understand more than just the meaning of the words given, I need to understand what exactly brought those words to the surface in the first place.  Today, I woke up with an overwhelming new knowledge about what it means to live with intent.  It’s so much better than simply living with goals.  Or simply living.  Intent is not just a list of things to do for the day.  Living a day with intent meant trusting in the worth of the things I wanted to do and having confidence in my ability to accomplish them that met my own quality standards.  Today I had that.  Despite a 20minute lull that turned into a catnap, my entire day had intent.

I feel like I’m half-assing this post, but I’m tired.  I need to read for a few minutes before bed, and I’m ready for tomorrow.


holes and their opposite

Posted: September 23rd, 2009 | Author: | Filed under: Inspiration, Today | Comments Off

I’m drinking tea at Spyhouse.  It is delicious.  I haven’t decided yet, but it was either a really great idea to move so close to my favorite coffee shop or a terrible decision.  I’ll probably end up spending far too much time here.  I’ve been back in Minneapolis from China for almost 5 days now.  This is the 4th time I’ve stopped here for something to drink.

Before I left China I told Carrie that one of the things I was looking forward to doing when I returned home was to sit at Spyhouse and drink a cup of coffee.  I like my idle time.  Every day I feel like I’m busier than I’ve ever been, but I’ll forever need silent staring minutes in order to feel ok.  There are not many of these empty minutes when you travel.  There are always people around and places that need walking to, sights or weirdness that beg to be photographed, train tickets or postage stamps that need to be puchased.  All of those tiny things make traveling magical.  Even though I was exhausted and out of my comfort zone so much of the time, the daily necessity to keep moving also kept my brain active.  With no down time, there was no time for my brain to start thinking itself into black holes.  That’s a good thing.  A brain distracted by activity is a happy brain.  After two weeks, I needed to dip into one of those endless, mindless holes.  So I’ve been at Spyhouse nearly every day since my return.  It has been great.  Now I’m relaxed, but I don’t want to get too far back to what was my normal life before I left here.  Before I left I realized that I had my own daily necessities that I had become too comfortable ignoring.  If I’m going to claim that I learned anything while I was away, it’s that I learned to take seriously all the shit that I need to get done for myself.

Blogging is not necessarily one of those things.  However, today, it is one of those things.


9-22-09

Posted: September 22nd, 2009 | Author: | Filed under: Uncategorized | Comments Off

I have an overwhelming urge to create, which I was able to stifle with a nap.  It couldn’t be helped.  I think tonight I nodded off through the dregs of my jetlag.  And now I’m all reset and ready to take advantage of creative impulse.  It’s actually an impulse based less on creative ideas and more on feeling like there’s no more time to waste creative energies.  I can really do anything I want to.  And so I should do those things without being dragged down by the other things that tend to drag me down.  Like thinking that I can’t do anything I want–that’s a really good way to get dragged down.

Peace.